I have realized...the less you respond to negativity; the more peaceful your life will become. I make broken look beautiful; and strong look invincible...I walk with the universe on my shoulders, and made it look like a pair of wings. You know what? It's okay not to be okay...and it takes enormous strength to admit that you are not okay. Nobody actually knows the real you...nobody knows how many times you sat alone and cried, or how many times you have lost hope. How many times you have been let down...how many times you felt you were going to snap. How many times you had to hold back on your tears...when I am sad bad thoughts goes through my mind. Only those who have known darkness can truly appreciate the light...I try my best to keep myself together through life's daily challenges!!!
I sometimes speak of hope because I find myself lacking it...trying to seek solace but finding only chaos. I keep finding myself drowning in a world full of noise...barely keeping it together...I scream in silence and whisper when I'm okay. Hanging on to sanity in fits and starts...moments of clarity seems few and far between. Dizzy from disarray living within, jaded by the promises that always fade away. Hoping for a day...when I can pretend it was all just a dream...I am who I am...no approval necessary. The day I changed was the day I quit trying to fit into a world that never really fitted me !!!