It took me a long time, a lot of sleepless nights and buckets of tears, but I’m finally getting closer to healing.
Sure, the pain of where I’ve been, what I’ve been through and the struggles of my past is still there..
Only now, I can tell my story without the tears, the overwhelming sadness and aching that used to accompany the tale of my past.It’s not been easy, confronting the road I’ve traveled and the bad choices, broken hearts and hurtful times…
But I’m so much closer to where I want to be now.I’ve been blessed with caring friends, a strong will and my innate desire to never stay down.
For so long, I ran from the truth, hid from the reality and tried to bury the pain of the past..I thought that would be how I could break free from the things that were trying to bring me down..
But the more I ignored and pushed aside the emotional turmoil from yesteryear, the more painful it became.
I learned a very hard lesson in that time- I could never move past what had happened until I dealt with it…
Truly addressing the parts of my journey that were still festering wounds was the only way I’d ever know peace.
I won’t tell you it’s been easy, painless or quick, because it hasn’t been.
But making the choice to confront the bleeding baggage from my past was the only way I’d ever finally make peace with it.Countless tears, sleepless nights and lots of soul searching led me down a hard path to healing, understanding and most of all, letting it go !!!
So, now, when someone asks me about those times long gone, I can faintly muster a smile,
Look them in the eye and tell my story without crying.
Finally, after all this time, I’m something I haven’t been in a long time..
I’m free !!!