If you catch me being happy please just let me enjoy you! I've been through alot that even if I had to say; words would entirely fail me; past traumas has taught me to always strive to put myself first and protect my heart. I've grown to love the woman I'm becoming more and more everyday... I'm very content with myself. I have a big heart and sometimes I hate it; i over think, i over apologize... I over forgive, I care too much about people who don't really care for me. I feel guilty about things that I don't have any control over...I try to save everyone around me before I even think about saving myself. I love too deep; and I feel so alone sometimes, because I'm not sure if I'll ever find someone who will see me for me; who thinks like me, loves like me, or view the world like me !!!
I've realized that most relationship will get "boring" after you've been together for years. Love isn't a feeling...it's a commitment to love everyday; physically and emotionally. It's difficult...it's not always laughs, smiles and fun; people tend to quit when it stops being fun, and they go look for someone else because "the spark is gone". No dear that's not how it works...everyone wants somebody to never give up on them, love them unconditionally and expect the same. Be that change...love isn't "Hollywood" and it's not the movies; that shit isn't real. Love someone when they don't want to...when they aren't that easiest to deal with; when they hard to love, that's the realist shit there is !!!